~my fault~

elo...haha...thought of writing again after daes of not leaving 1...ok...hmmm....wad recently happened...let me tink...

---FrIdAe 2 SaTuRdAe---
my brother bought me a new handphone in replacement of my spoilt phone...hehe...so nice...den the next dae,my sisters went out to Mustafa Centre never ask me go...donoe y they neva ask...so bad...but i sabar...i be patient...nvm not asking me go...they den buy new handphones for themselves...arrrgghh...so angry...not bcoz i jealous but bcoz they buy the handphone 1 dae after my brother bought me a new one...i haven even finish enjoying admiring my new phone...is like they cannot c me having a new phone tat they oso have to buy 1...den oso buy 2 new phones but different model from mine...but their phone are still in very good tip-top condition...so,wad's the deal ryte?haha...their money...not mine..how can i stop them...haha...

---Sundae---
they went out in the afternoon again...never ask me again...go airport somemore...den go see christmas lites @ orchard...so angry...till i drown myself in tears...my mom was like aiya,nvm la...go airport n see christmas lites nth 1 la...i oso try 2 relax la...but was very heartbroken inside...they say they don wan go out...in the end still go out...after watch shrek,go sleep...but den cannot sleep...too sad...so i sms my overseas cousin...ask him y people keep doing bad tings to me though i did nothing wrong...he reply back as if he tinks i am at fault...i pretend to be innocent only...he say don blame others coz in the near future, i wud find out tat i was at fault...he sae juz pray god helps us...his reply made me more upset n pissed off...i was like i didn't do anything wrong...didn't say anything that made others hurt...how can i be wrong...but since he replied tat way,i told him,"Fine...I Will Stop Blaming Others & Start Blaming Myself!!"...den ard eleven my sisters came back...mom told them i cried...my eldest sis was like i didn't know...y i didn't ask...so i see...it all comes back 2 me...i was at fault as i didn't ask...

Now,i feel as though my life is going upside down...evryting i do never seems 2 be ryte...i am alwaes to be blame for something i didn't do...so i guess,i'm tat unlucky...wad shud i do 2 make it ryte...donoe...guess tis will be my quote den...
==="I Will Stop Blaming Others & Start Blaming Myself"===