promise

hey... i'm back... promise a few frens [[either directly or indirectly]] tat i was going to update on fridae... venting my anger and stuffs like that... but i'm sorry... it seems that i'm two daes late... was kinda busy... but still, my work are all half way done~!! incomplete!! haixx... must manage my time better... must start creating time table for myself!! n i muz follow no matter wad... or i will be like wad i am... a PANDA!! i have dark circles!! OH MY!! it's tat obvious ryte??

my anger time...

first he ask about my personal life... i called him vain-ie as HE HIMSELF takes photo of himself!!! n he DARES sae i'm VAIN!! what?!! den... he told our CT tat I have malaysian boyfrens!!! den... she replied saying... malaysia's too near!!! go for africa!!! it was that insulting but i bear wif it... she's my CT, my cher!!! i can't shut her ryte?? can i??? den... he called me BOMBSHELL juz becoz i said some malaysian guys ask me this smt that is "kalau awak tkde pakwe, apsal tknk declare ngan kite...??" or wen translated "since u sae u dont have a boyfren, y are u not declaring wif me??" stress!!! these guys are my cuzzins and my god brother's fren... it's stressful u noe... haixx... den... he asked whether any guys in school stole my HEART... well, i replied... "No... I don't ogle at guys!!" guess what?? he said... well... u're a lesbian... what the!!! i was so frustrated!! and angry... but wen he asked... n den he called... i was like laughing all the way... pretending to be HAPIE!!! UNHURT!!! UNANGRY!![[ like there's such word.. haha]] it's a lie i have to bear to not hurt my fren's feelings...

den the next day... he called me BODOH!!! oh my... now... i'm seriously very ANGRY, HURT, BROKEN, all words to describe a SHATTERED HEART!!! FRAGILE... NOW IT HAS SHATTERED TO A MILLION BILLION TRILLION INFINITY PIECES!!!! can't even find those missing parts any more!!! i almost cried though... but... i WONDER!!! do he even think of my feelings?? my sensitivity?? wen he blurt out those words...?? i guess he did not!!! he's HEARTLESS i tell u... HEARTLESS!! maybe he don't even own a HEART!!!

lucky for me i have such nice, wonderful, understanding frens, my sweetie gal classmates!! who understands my plight fully!! thanx gals!! i'm nothing without you... u gals noe who u are :p!! u're the best!! thanx!!