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today, my mood just went downhill... during gp/pw at computer lab... yup... my world came crashing down... it just turned so dark... made me so blue... im sorrie... i didnt mean anything in anyway... i didnt mean to do the things i did... it wasnt even prioritising... i juz wanted to change... but that didnt mean i cared for you any lesser... i was in a shocked when i read what u wrote... at that instance, i was unsure of what to do... i wasnt sure why it happened... i wasnt sure if that was the reason... i just cant figure it out... i just dont know... i was in a state of dilemma... i was given choices... which i refuse to choose from... i didnt want to lose anyone juz for my stoopid actions of that... i just couldnt bear to lose u... why cant u see that in my point of view... why am i to blame? the reason... im stoopid... i was too complacent or even too immature to see things the way u do... the way u think... the way u want me to see things... im just too blur... i just cant understand... i wish i could... but i couldnt...

im sorrie i broke ur heart... ur feelings... please i beg, i cry, for ur forgiveness... i cannot lose u when im already bonded to u... u r no longer my fren... i regard u as my brother... u can treat me any way u like but please... please remember, no matter what u ask me to do... i shall always remember u... i hope u feel better after much rest... i hope u stay strong... i hope to see ur smile... i hope for u to be healthy always... my hope for you take good care... i really really really miss ur company... im not lying... if u dont miss me... i wudnt mind... u have much more important people to miss... okies... i will understand... u dont have to worry... aite? do take care of your health... =)

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haix... yea... did insights and reflections during the gp/pw lesson... i was very affected laa... so... my i&r was ok according to my mentor, team member, desmond... he helped me thru a lot... he helped me in the english, sentence structure... evertyting!! he improved on mine... thanx desmond... hope its ok now... now muz do written report... hmph... we'll do the task as a team!!
whee!!~

den after tat was lunch... usually i ate... but i guess i lost my appetite... i was too worried about him... angry wif him? was not so much... i was too sad... too depress... too much to think... i juz couldnt help but kept on thinking bout him... i was very worried... i didnt noe wad to do... i wanted to help him in any ways i could... but... haix... it's ok... i'll pray for him...

the rest of the dae was fine... till geog lessons when keith and meng hang found out tat my reflex action was huge!! yea... they find it funny... so... tats bout it... cya...


ps: abg amir... take care k... mala sayang abg amir taw... jangan la cedey cedey... n xde mood... please abg... smile ok... adik mane suke tengok abang dia sedey? sorie... :(