..a little too sweet*

ok lets c... due to a request... by mr keith low... haha... i shall update again...
im trying to chiong my promos now... but im very stressed...
im stressed n feels burdened by so many things... many many things...

ok... dont get carried away ok... maybe ppl like keith will tink... my malaysian boyfriendss are part of the burden... will u keith?? hahaha... i hope not... but my gut feeling saes u will... hmmm... contradictory... but nvm... its slightly my burden tooo... u r right.. but not tat they'll affect me... not that they dont... they do stress me up... but problems like family ones, pW, proMos... u noe... more major and of more importance... it just stresses me more and more... furthermore i noe smt else... i must pass my geog with a 55% to pass promos... its kinda ok to push myself n boost my spirits but it sort of demoralising too... sad... sad... wad to do... i've lost my flair in geography... eversince i dont noe... i lost it ppl... i lost it... haix... its upseting for me... but no one really noes... i may seem like wadever la... geog oni... but still... it hurts n aches me to the soul... my bro return once or twice... but not alwaes... he's continuing with his plans... tats so disappointing n heartbreaking... it so uncalled for... but he doesnt noe we noes... we'll just pray he'll be ok... pray tat it wont happen... i juz dont noe... HELP!!!!!

ok... my malaysian "boyfriends" now... since this is a place to vent any unhappiness and frustration... aniwae... all of them are very nice to me!! yea... i maybe deceived by the nice-ness... kindness... sweetnesss... but i juz cant help myself wen ppl go overly sweet... wen they can just be so opened and straight forward... im glad ppl can be straightforward but too much of it.. it scares me too... im countless on how many of them have been tat nice towards me... in which i fall into their every trap... y? izit because im to nice to them? or izit because it looks as though im giving them hope? it hurts to say yes to all for im lying to them... but to reject them too is hurtful for me... so... wenever this comes up... i would avoid it... i would quickly change the topic? y? y cant i face it? y cant i jus be as open as them? do i have feelings for them all?? i donoe... maybe im still too young and stoopid to understand all these... i hope as years pass i can understand better on who was really being honest and who was playing around... for now, the only thing i noe is that most of them has feelings for me!! y? i dont noe... i dont dare to noe... i wish to but im afraid it will cause more trouble and heartbreaking moments for me... or worst still, it affects the friendship we share... wad do i do? i feel dumb... useless...



17 and too young? i guess im not really opened to the open world... im lost... in my world of i donoe... =(