..a little too sweet*

haix... the previous post dated 01nov06 was mainly referring to "them"... haish... i guess now it's for the other "them"... the "them" which are here... nearer and around me... well, do u really think understand me tat well to utter such tings u said... especially u said it... and the other agredd to it?? yup... mayb i was... but u could have told me and not like wad u did... just told the intervening parties the things u said.. mayb u c me stoning then... but u never noe wad went through my mind... how i felt... if i could i would have burst into tears and vent my anger on you right there and then... however... i controlled all those... and kept it safe... kept it somewhere im the onli one can feel it... i take it to the heart... seriously... i find that u said stuffs without thinking of how i might i have felt but u have the right to do so... who am i to stop u from saying such mean, piercing, hurtful things ryte?? what im juz me... if thats my nature or something i did out of unhappiness... at least the smallest thing u could do was to inform me first... it would have been nicer... and it would have made me more undestanding of myself and of my character... but... it is over now... nothing can be change... i wish... u would not have juz say wad u said without even thinking if u really noe me.... really understand me... my character that well that u blurt out saying those hurtful things!! aarrhhh... wadever...



i juz feel that maybe im too complicated for people, my friends and others to understand me... to really understand me as a person... as someone i really am.. without the complications u c me as... i juz wish... wish... that may never come true...



ps: noone will understand me... noone really cares... noone really is that nice to tell you the mistakes made to u but they rather make themselves look like some "hero" to others...