..a little too sweet*

haix...

i wonder wad is happening to my friendship with my frens nowadays... eversince the new year... i mean not my jc frens... the others... haish... wad have i done wrong... or wad have i not done right? im upset... sad... i can cry my life away thinking why all this are happening to me... somehow i feel empty without their presence in my life... but i guess they dont know... they dont understand... at times i wonder... why am i in this situation? why am i stuck..? why am i so worried to lose them? why am i feeling this way.. why am i preoccupied with thoughts...? what have i done wrong??

kdg2... hidup mmg pnuh dgn dugaan dan cabaran yg tak kite duga-ee pon... but tu tk semestinya i muz go thru it ryte? mesti ke ikut cabaran yg dlemparkn kat kite... kalau sye laluinye... mungkin... semua brjln lancar... mungkin pula ia kn menjadi lebih buruk... tu la sbb sye begitu takot nak lalui semuanye... tp ad tk org paham... tak... smua sye gak yg dslhkn.... sye akui yg sye ni mmpunyai mnyk mslh dn kdg2... keadilan tk ade... spt da jatuh dtimpa tngge... in life, i learnt to accept... but i cant 4get...



ni dkhaskn utk wanwan kechik...


Dear Wanwan,
ayie nak mintak kt wanwan kalau selame wanwan kenali ayie... wanwan tk hapie ke... rase terabai... rase seperti ayie mempermainkan our relationship with each other... kalau lah wanwan ade rase ayie ni da jadi sombong alek like the first time u noe me... im sorie... if i can argue my stand... i really want to tell u that... haix... xpe la... anyway... ayie tak pernah lupekan wanwan dan segala bantuan wanwan yang telah wanwan lakukan untuk ayie... pertolongan wanwan amat ayie hargai... budi baik wanwan tak dapat ayie balas... ayie amat berterima kasih ngan wanwan... tapi wanwan... ayie sedih wanwan kate ayie de abg bru and wanwan da takde sis agy... nape wanwan tgamak ckp cmtu... nape wanwan kate ia telah menjadi kenangan? ayie pelik... ayie sedey... ayie runsing... bingung... ayie hampe gak... tapi mesti wanwan kate wanwan lagi hampe ngan perangai ayie kan... spt ape yg dkatekn didie... nape wanwan kate sume yang wanwan telah katekn... ye... mmg ayie tulis ni dgn emosi yg tk tenteram... kalau wanwan nak kate ayie terlalu emosional pun kate la.... yg benar... ayie sedey.. hampe... knape kawan2 sane sume nk uat cmni...? ape kslahn ayie yg sbnr?? ayie taw ayie xsempurna... ayie tau ayie xdapat jadi yg terbaik utk semua... ayie taw semua ni... ayie taw ayie jahat... ayie taw la... tp pernah tak wanwan pk... kalau ayie sunyi kat sini... sape jd teman ayie kt sini?? mane tempat ayie nk luahkn semua ni skunk?? mmg ayie pendam sorg... tkde sape jd tmpt mengadu... mmg wanwan ade utk menjadi tmpt ngaduan ayie... tp dlu... bile ayie ngadu kat didie kn... ayie bersalah... rse cm ayie ni menyusahkn org sgt... dan kalau ayie da asyik ngadu2... kalau ttbe stop... org igt ayie da lupekn mereka... mmg ni kslahn ayie... tapi... haix... ayie tak paham why?? semua ni berlaku pada ayie.. ni la balasan ayie dpt... im sorie wanwan... im sorie abg azwan... im so sorry... sorry... sorry kalau ayie membuat wanwan kecik ati... sorie abg... sorie for evriting... :(


yours sincerely,
*ayie normala...