..a little too sweet*

my wish that will not come true...
1) i wish i am pretty [dlm mmp akan saye jadi bidadari... heee]
2) i wish i am cute like u alwaes sae [ well, i dont have dimples like u think... =( ]
3) i wish i am sweet [ i wanna live up to my cuzzins expectations... ]

my thoughts that are left unexpressed...
1) my love tat is too strong for that someone
2) the feelings knowing that it wont happen
3) the feelings that keeps telling me dont be dumb
4) my mind that doesnt sleep
5) the truth i spilled and not knowing if u really understood
6) the regrets i have to live with eversince
7) the reasons that i want him back but i couldnt
8) the reasons that i dont want to let him go
9) the reasons that im trying to forget but i cant
10) the reasons i want to have another person in my life
11) the reasons i noe even if i wish to have that other person... i wont get it...
12) the life i have to live everydady thinking of why... why am i doing this?



so much thing to do... but i cant... im stuck... im sad... im juz plain sad... :(
it hurts... kill my doubts.... i wish i can hold u close n never had to let u go...