..a little too sweet*

it's been ages since i updated... reason... im not sure... lazy...? no topic? [confirm not true coz many things happen... hehe...] maybe it is juz pure laziness & im not sure of how to express myself... well, i just read my cuzzin's blog... i felt sad actually... i donoe... maybe because i want my cuzzin to be hapie... and there's no way i can make my cuzzin feel better... huhu... im such a lousy cousin... how sad...

well... went hari raya 3 times this year with my friends... all of it brings memories of its own though 2 of the group are the same cliques with plus minus the ppl that come or didnt... we did enjoy ourself... =) filled our stomachs & pockets! hehe... oh ya... CHANEL! u jambu la make-up! haha... :P first raye went home @ about 11 plus... second raye @ 1o plus... third raye @ 1o plus too... having a fourth one this weekend... go teacher's house! yay!! :)

somehow... i dont know... im feeling lost in my love life again... it is as though my past is repeating but with a twist... i noe about him more than i noe about anyone else!! his presence makes me feel secure though his far from reach... and i dont know if we were to ever meet... and if we were ever be together and lasts for a lifetime... i dont know!! im lost... LOST!!! dont keep on wondering why im feeling this way... why im falling in love through online things... maybe i just cant explain the feelings... but u may find it stupid! i do too... but it feels surreal! maybe... if this was jus my dream... and that im dreaming in my dream... i wish my dream can bring me further than this... dont leave me hanging... dont leave me to yearn for him to come... haix...

my life is super complicated! with me being a super sensitive girl... will he ever be able to tolerate my sensitivity? i dont know... i dont care if he is super garang... ehem...

" Segarang garang harimau... Kalau dijaga, dibelai... Jadi manja macam kucing kan! "
-falsafah ayiie... =) hehe..