..a little too sweet*

can people just stop pissing me off BIG time?? i have had enough of step pandai people!! never to admit they're wrong!! who always think they're always right!! im sick and tired ok?? im just a girl... patience has its limits too!!


im not the BABY GIRL any more though i will forever be your youngest child & forever be a BRAT... that fact will never change unless i somehow have a younger sibling [be it by blood or adopted somewhere on earth!]


dad pissed me off big time!! he always talk in a terbelit-belit manner... he always wants to win in any conversation turn argument turn into a heated debate session!! ok!! thats just the way he is... and im sick of it... REALLY SICK!! me and him dont see eye to eye... i for that matter is sick of his character so i WILL very well make sure he LOSES in any argument ever since god knows when... i think since i step into jc... well, a stupid conversation just now... and he made me super angry la... his way of talking is so terbelit that sometimes he can turn and twist things to make it LOOK like we are that STUPID & DUMB!! it ended when he told me to "SHUT UP!!" and yes this makes me sick cause he always wants to win... and he just doesnt make sense!! he made me lose my appetite... so i left my poor 2 mcWings chicken and twister fries on the dinner table and watched tv... awwww... kesian makanan tu... tak salah sey!! i LOATHE his character as much as he hates mine... mwahahahha!! he knows now he cant win with me around... i WILL not let him win too ok?? get it!! and so im very angry...


it may seem silly to you readers for me to be pissy pissed over trivial matters! but heck no it is not trivial to me when u have to withstand this nonsense everytimee!!! even when travelling, he always thinks he is right... how irritating is that... when chop chop things show evidently that he is 200% wrongg!! proof is there... he can twist things around to show that the correct thing was what he was trying to say BUT we WONT listen... wth can??? it pissed the whole life out of me can??


if it happens once or twice... ok la.. forgiven.. if all your life you have been seeing this and he never seems to change... you will get rebellious... so im officially THE rebel in my family... my movements are restricted... everything also cannot... being the YOUNGEST simply sucks... people say, being the youngest means we get what we want all the time... well, it is true when we're younger, but as we get older, it doesnt hold true anymore... we dont always get what we want... we have to work for it... if we really want something, we have to fulfil what they want from us... which is like unattainable no matter how hard one try! it is just not fair...


everyone else can celebrate countdown, watch fireworks... i seriously love fireworks... i want fireworks on my wedding.. but it is not cheap... i know.. but exciting kan fireworks on a a wedding!! if i cant have one... can someone have one and invite me? pretty please?;((


on 31st dec 08, i went out with the usual people.[sayang u guys/girls okay?] and i went back at aroud 9plus at nite[duh~ nite la kan!]... oh my sis told me... she purposely pissed my dad off by saying i was at Marina Bay to watch fireworks... and dad got all pissy pissy!! wth can? mum dont do this to me... oh when dad's angry... he dont scolds us... he have this stupid mindset that if he scold us we will hate him... how stupid is that... ni la logik nenek kite yang cine tu!! bengap giler sey!! so he nags at mum and when we reach home, mum nags at us... haha!! just to make him feel better... mum understands us more...


im turning 20 soon... im over the teen in my age... can give me some freedom?? :(( i oso have a life... but now i dont have 1... im turning into a rebellious young adult... is it scary or normal? i dont know!! :(


i need someone to talk to, someone to share...


i cant rely on my brother [tah la dia...], my 1st sis [ni lagi satu.. tah la!!], my 2nd sis [ni? haih], my DAD [tkpyh harap la... he'll NEVER faham ok? beats me why...], my mum [she just dont get it too..]


my friends? they have problems of their own too... i cant turn to them all the time rite?? but they do care... :)) i love them lots!! both guys and girl who have helped me like -diy, maddy,nurul,helmi ,ruz :)- thanx so much for your concern, advice and care for me..!! love u love u!! meet up some time k?? windu crapping/cam whoring.. :))


my cuzzins? i used to turn to abg bob & abg amy... now not anymore... i have too many male cuzzins... and only 1 female cuzzin of mine is older than me... 1 same age the rest are much younger... it will be weird expressing to the younger ones rite though 2 of them are 1 & 2 years younger.. im supposedly the more kakak2 kn? haih.. but im not... title je kakak, but im not the kakak2 yang kakak2 la... ahahha!! tak make sense lak! ;(


my onliners? i do turn to them at timess... they do help me too!! but they themselves have problems of their own just like my friends... those who have helped me -kirov, annep munk :)), casper, kak fiya, kak fieqa- thanx sayangs! love u lotss!! you rawks!! though you dont know me much... u've helped thru... making me laugh!! making me feel just fine... whee!!


my baby dearest? i love turning and confiding in him... he makes me laugh when im crying... he will always tell me... "syg, dah jgn nangis lagi.. dah besar kan? mane boley nangis.. saye tknk awak nangis k syg.." hahah!! so sweet tao.. so usually i wont cry after he says this but if i do continue crying... he'll find ways to make me laugh... sampai pecah perot gelak... my sorrows will just disappear... :)) but now... haih... :(( do i need/miss/want him? the answer is within my heart... i will know it... he will know it... maybe you will know it? hahahahah!!


ok ok... though im still a bit pissed now... i should be better soon... if it fails.... then... i'll start disturbing people till i laugh!! and drop dead! hahahah!! macam semalam!! im such a meanie! and i can be bitchy! so back off! hahahahaha!!




nurul, maddy, diyanah, farah, shikeen, zah, yas, helmi, faiz, haziq, fahmi, ruzzy!!! i miss you all la!! emo eyh tibe tibe! hahahaha!! meet up soon kaes?? i miss the "sarcasm", the laughter, the craps, the stories and all the things!! :(( meet up soon soon soon!! :))