..a little too sweet*

have not been feeling too well... which adds on to the misery that is my right WRIST hurts yet again!! after what seems like never ending days of carrying heavy loads... not that im not used to it... but i guess i've been putting TOO much strain on the right... i dont like balancing things on both hands... it irritates me at times... so u can see me walking a little senget... hahaha!! like balancing beam.. the heavier side goes lowerr... like that... hahaha!!

so, did some urut-ing of the wrist with my aunt... she says ni stress sangat ni... it hurts like ^%$#%@##@!!! after which my whole right hand felt sore!! super sore & lenguh!! feel like it's going to break anytime! :(( oh, my sis have been complaining that i've been mengigau-ing[sleep-talking] lately at about 5plus in the morning since wednesday... hehehe... i guess it is due to stress too!! have anyone told you about you sleep-talking?? hahaha! >.<

weird statements involving my mum! so i asked mum, ayie mane stress... coz i dont really look as though im that close to stress... hahaha!! but she says... deep inside me, i am very stress... come to think of it... i guess it's true... =( lately, several things have been running & playing through my mind such as...

• 'A' Level results - my family members ie. my brother, my aunts & uncles have been asking when my results is! it puts pressure on me!! i dont know what to tell them if i dont do well... furthermore, im the only one from mum's side that is in JC... [i have 1 on my dad's side that made it to the Universitiy] :((
• HIM!* [fadzil!] - i've tried to not remember him so that i wont disturb him/pissed him off/etc... but i just cant get him off my mind!! i miss him laa... every night i sleep i think of him... when im cold in the night, i will think of him because he told me kalau awak sejuk, awak gunalah jacket saye bagi ni, i'll keep you warm walaupun saya jauh [this was the first time we met when i didnt want him to leave on thursday night because i know i wouldnt be able to see him again for the next 6-12mths..] i miss him i miss him i miss him... how i wish he knows i how i miss him... :(( *stop whining!*

i guess, life has its surprises... i cant wait to see gayathri on 29 january 2009!! hahaha!! i miss her!! :)) oh... and im booked by madhiah on the 07 february 2009!! hahaha!! gentle reminder for me on the 07th!! i was warned to make myself free!! what if i dont... hmmm.. hahahaha!!! will madhiah chop me up? hehehe! :p