..a little too sweet*

updates! :)

well, i cant think of anything to updatemuch.

other than the facts problems are resurfacing again. && it is killing me ever so softly.. like as if my own problems are not enough.. i've yet to solve mine.. && others popped!!

angah angah.. u & me.. will not be super nice.. let's pretend to be nice? no no! i will not!! ok.. just take it this way.. im a mirror of u.. but u're the prettier one.. :) and.. u dont know me much 20years passed.. u only see the bratsy, childish, pampered,spoilt me.. awww.. * boo hoo sis!* hahas.. u're just the same.. only that we were born in different years with different technology during our times. and yes.. there's so much more inside me burning and pissy about you and what you said. i only said, " taknak la tinggal sebelah angah." and u got all bitchy. wth!! ok. nvm. short story doesnt make sense. in the end. i will get the blame. but sorry. it's a war btwn sisters. parents not involved though parents know about this. && who's to blame? oh yes.. points fingers to ME! wth la ok?! i dont mind. but u created a big mess thanx to my one sentence. anyway, you started the mess.

lesson learnt:
DO NOT LET OUT YOUR ANGER TO OTHERS IF THEY'RE NOT IN THE WRONG IN THE FIRST PLACE.

then another came just the previous day from the problem above.. && please tak mo ar main kotor.. bingit ar.. tak puas.. face depan depan.. jangan main secara halus.. bodoh ke ape? tk brani da la.. and NO BLACKMAILING && THREATENING!! arrrgghh!! humans.. macam macam perangai dan kerenah. bengang jek! :(

lesson learnt:
KALAU NAK KAHWIN, RESTU IBU AYAH PENTING.

well, let's talk about my health. well, truthfully, you can see me going out, going here there.. that make me perfectly fine right? yes yes.. it makes me feel just fine and ok.. however, the fact is, im not that ok.

my appettite is not well yet. i only eat once a day. ONCE for a full meal [only during lunch. somewhere between 1pm-3pm]. and at night, i will just have a bite or two from my sis's or mum's food. though i can get really hungry, i just cant seem to eat!! my appettite is really going haywire. it wants food but i cant seem to have food swallowed down the throat. my throat refuses food. even if it takes in food, i will be filled in 2, 3 suaps! huhu..

so, im not really ok. but if you ask, i'll tell u im fine. coz i am fine. there's nothing seriously wrong with me. haih. but, i just feel very worn out and fatigue-ish. im not as energetic. always feeling lethargic. i feel so old. =( could it be because of my food intakes that has been deteriorating?

haih.. i need help. my brains is messed up with problems. i just wish to let it all out. and just cry and what nots. i just want it all out of me! haih. :( please please.. get it off me!! :((

could all my problems be a cause for my closed appettite? or maybe it is just me. :(

i'm in need of someone. :(