my heart's happy but it's crying too.
im smiling yet im hurt inside too.
my smiles are fake if you ever saw it.
my tears are real if you ever felt it.
you readers will not understand much about the things i just wrote.
one year ago, i said something stupid. a few days later what was there disappeared.
it broke me to pieces and shattered the heart of mine but what was i to do?
days, weeks and months later, i tried hard to forget, but it was hard so i stick to my heart.
i left logic for emotion. for emotios was stronger than logic. and logic just was illogical.
a year on, the pieces stick together but there's that missing part that needs to be filled.
that one missing piece that still needs to be fixed.
truthfully, it is fixed a year later. it made me happy but i felt crying was the best thing to do. but i didnt want to cry. i didnt want to look hurt. or anything of that sort. i want to look as if im the strongest girl aroundd. but no one knows im dying inside.
im going home to s'pore today. and i just dont want to go.
i want him like yesterday. but unfortunately, i cant repeat yesterday but i will always treasure and cherish that night (27-12-2009). i love you even if you dont feel the same way like i do.. ;(