it hurts..tyvm*

it hurts.
it really hurts..
it hurts so much...
it really hurts so much...

i am imagining doing the unthinkable.. it looks like the easiest way out.. you dont understand and i doubt that you will.. it's okay.. for time will tell.. on the other hand, i do not know if i should as i do not know how things will end up.. how things will be.. moreover, it wasnt your mistake, it was mine all the way..

i dont know what to do.. people are wrecking my brain & destroying my feelings.. i am getting hurt, mind you.. ;(

why did Allah give us a heart to feel, and not make it of steel? why must we have feelings and endure sufferings? ;(

days passed and i keep on thinking.. why did i let myself feel? numb the feelings and i hope to hold strong and be happy once and for all.. but no.. this cant be ;(

every day i think of things to say but it end up being unsaid.. unwise you may say..

fill my shoes and feel how i feel ;(

goodnight life.. i am holding back tears, and hope it wont fall but i know thats impossible.. very impossible :((

ps:// heart, let your feelings go..
ps2:// tears, please dont fall..