..a little too sweet*

at times i wish i can smile... smile like i never did before... without tinking of the past... the mean tings and events people said and do... words tat hurt... words tat pierced thru the heart... actions tat was shocking... actions that was hurting and sensitive... tings when i tink back and reflect for my own good was too hurtful... where instances, crying is the only solution... when one feels lost... unwanted... uncared for... [except my family i mean...] the rest? haix... never certain at all... i juz wished... only wish... and only if a wish to come true... i wish ppl can accept me for who i am... not that they dont... n tat please... it's never good to judge a book by its cover... well, i can never say much... judging books by its cover is long gone... now, evryone... i mean evryone... even those strangers from irc, msn, ym, friendster, myspace, etc are given as much attention and open-ness... im giving them a chance... but... i do feel dumb at times... for giving such unknown ppl this very chance as im putting myself at such high risks... nevertheless... i dont know... i dont care... i'll move on with my life... like my life has always been... only wishing for a miracle... and for that smile...