..a little too sweet*

dear life... why are u doing this to me?? im still feeding on my family... like a parasite... y!! im so depress... sad... weak... i dun have strength nor courage to face this... im so... WEAK!!! y... i donoe wad to do... im so helpless... im so hurt... so confused... so shocked... so pain... the unbearable heart pain... i feel like... haix... i need strenth n courage... but ive got none... im contemplating... im thinking of any possible worst case scenarios... shyt... im so... haix... negative... filled with negativity... unhappiness... now... haix!!!! im HELPLESS!!! oh my... what am to do? he went for an operation just now... and now under observation in the icu... tmrw mayb he going operation yet again... im worried... :(( i have not strength... no courage... why is this the part of me? haix...