..a little too sweet*

seeing my dad in hospital lying there... inactive... unlike always... hurts me so much!! it's tearing me apart!! it's making me feel like dying!! im so depress... worried... sad... down right going insane!! i dont want him to go... yesterdae he went for the ballooning operation... which i donoe wad it is... he might be going for a bypass operation next... mami's sad... seeing her sad... cry... hurts me even more!!! i guess i wont do well again in block tests... last yr was a different case.... n my results was damn ugly... i guess it will be so this yr... my emotions wont be ok... what am i to do? all i can do is cry... i dont want him to go! im so negative thinking... if god wants to take someone... take me over him please... mami needs daddy!!! haix... i need some to talk all this things out! who is willing to hear me cry! but who? haix...