..a little too sweet*

it has been eleven long days since i last updated... so i shall start updating all those tings i can remember... i am a very forgetful person u know... but when it comes to remembering ppl, i dont 4get u guys at all... even if i seldom sms, drop a msg anywhere, ask for ur well being... doesnt mean im arrogant... n it definitely does not i mean i dont care any much more about u... okies? i miss u guys a lot... but what hurts me is that... when i dont msg u, u dont msg me too... as if u want to take revenge... and it the end... i will have to take the blame for not keeping in contact... =(

dad went for 4 bypass heart operation on mondae the 28th of may 2007... yeap... he didnt want us to go in the morning b4 the operation so we respected his decision and went in the afternoon... we waited for him at the icu watiting area... and when he finally came out, we went to see him... the sight of him having the tubes and many many other tubes really hurts me deeply... till it made me realise how precious life is and how vulnerable ppl are... so we stayed till night time hoping he would wake up from the sleep tingy but he didnt... however he did so when my uncle came right when we went back.. -_-'' how unfair! we were there first!! hahas!!

so we visited him everyday until wednesdae that is when my trip to hospital stop coz i have immersion trip to n9 on thursdae thru sundae.... so i felt rather sad wanting to leave home coz u noe anything can happen... but i plucked up enough courage to go... so i did... haha...

lets summarise the trip... trip on the firt dae was ok la... fun... hahaha... tiara beach resort stay was cooL... but i left my plug there... sad... =( but it's otay... it's jus the plug so i can fit my two pin plug... hahahaha... understand??? hehehe... went to other places too!! rumah anak yatim, muzium negeri. etc... heee!! best best!!

second to last day was at kmpng lonek... it was a fun stay there!! really really good!! but we not close to our mak angkat coz i guess she n us doesnt really want to feel the hurt leaving each other after bonding... we do talk but not very much... oni during the times we eat as well as when watching tV... i was an orphan there coz i hv no dad... he passed away five years ago i tink... hmmm... it really have a different impact... it really did... she brought us shopping at bahau at hiway... hee!!! we oso went to one persandingan n9 style n food... i really really enjoyed the games so much!!! hahaha.... the malam budaya is so cool... fell in love with them laaa... but sad to leave them the next morning...

then we went to mini malaysia at melaka... we did a joget lambak with the dancers... we were invited to dance... we refused but out cher force us dancers to go... so we did... dance with the mostly made up of male dancers... fun dance... :) never felt this experience in singapore... heee!! but i have stomach ache till now... =(

however... this was an unforgettable memory ever!! i miss kampung lonek, umi fauziah, kucing2 dan ibu n ayah angkat laen di sane!!! we are planning to go back next year at the end of next year!! yay!!! i will be looking forward to it!! hehehe... jaybee... hmmm.. :P

dad's home on the 4th of june 2007... heee... well come home!! his scars really hurts me!!! it is very scary... he is going to remove his stitches this saturdae... n i wil be following mum... hmm... i have camp ampas ting n i cant go... =( sorie!


hmmm... sometimes i wonder... is it wrong to keep loving someone? is it wrong to keep thinking of someone... is it wrong to just bear the feelings for someone not knowing if he feels the same way too???



real love stories never have happy endings....
because real love stories never end....