..a little too sweet*

im undergoing depression... im so stress up... no matter how much i try... it justs never shows... i hate being an economy... having highs and lows... inflations... fluctuating... not one with a positive gradient or a constant straight line... thats exactly my problem... to top it off... i just dont know how to overcome all this... an obvious would be doing the things that i am bound not to do and have interest in! so how??? why ami talking in riddles? riddles only i understand... only i can solve? why dont i know how to share in words... counselling? no! i cant express myself well enough for people to understand me that when i explain myslef and people dont get it... it adds on to my frustration level when in fact i should be releasing it through these "chats"... haix... sigh... what else can i do..? all i do is keep it to myself... life is never fair... use an unbiased estimate... a salt bridge to walk to the other side... moving in a parabolic path... ending in a garden of flowery language... im going crazy! im driving myself mad!!! aarrgghhh!!