today it happened again :(
i was just so mixed up with emotions in the wee hours of the morning..
i only had a bout 1.5 or less hours of sleep when mami woke us up at 6am.. i got a shock of my life.. mami said.. "na, call ambulance.." obviously i woke up like super shock. that i literally jumped up and sat on the bed..
haihhh :( he's fine now, hopefully.. ;( insyaallah.
it's raining and its pouring here..=(
if only tears ease all my pain..
if only tears makes me smile again..
no. i lost the ability to smile.
i lost the ability to smile in pain.
i can smile but behind this smile is filled with worries.
worries at home about daddy and worries about you.
i will lie if you asked if i feel worried about you.
i will lie if you asked if i cried anymore.
i will lie if i feel the truth will make you worried about me.
i will tell the truth even though it will hurt me in return
i will tell the truth even if it means risking it all
i will tell the truth after every lie.
i cant live telling lies to someone i adore.
i cant live making that person worried either.
im not good at lying. you'll see thru my lies.
sms lies? i can do it but i cant prolong it.
the truth will be told.
arrgghh.. i feel so worried when daddy starts going to work again.. at least achik is there with him..
and i'll feel as worried when he starts going to school.. but i know his friends are there for him. he has a bunch of very heartwarming and caring crazy clique.. he'll be fine im sure.. im sure he will..:)