..a little too sweet*

go n die with my previous post... who the hell cares what i tink... who i like... who i love... how im hurt by u!!! coz im just a small fry in evryone's life... no one really cares... im juz a distant idiot who doesnt know what life is about there... well, i guess... this is my blog... my personal life... and i shall rant i what i want!! and im going to say who i am infatuated with... who the hell cares ryte? ya... i love didie... and i still do... but i guess i should let him go... and move on... which in due time i will, i hope... well, i began to like one dollar boy... donoe hu? well, u guys noe him as that la... i call him wan2... ok? u guys must have been shocked ryte? the lies i have to tell myself that i dont like him all the time!! y?? i like him.. i like him... i like him so much... but... yyy?? y cant i help myself by telling him??? he's so nice... he's so sweet... he juz cares for u!!! but... y??i noe y... do u?? no... n wth laaa... im just so pissed... im so stoopid laa... i should have juz... i donoe... so wad!!!! no one cares!!! he don care!! u dont care!! only i care!!! only im sad... only me me me!!! the world revolves only around me!! the stoopid idiot who loves to love someone that i can never be sure i meet... im sad... disappointed... im juz plain foolish... if only i didnt... if only i could... i would have... im a stoopid girl leading a stoopid life... am i living to be hapie or hapie to be living?



im sorie... i just have to express myself... i sound harsh ryte? but this is how i really feel... n really... i dont tink anyone cares... except my fellow frens in yjc... thanx for understanding how i feel n how moody i get in school... and in the end... i keep on talking on my malaysian frens who i have a "puppy love" in n blaming myself for being stoopid, etc... u were there to shoot me down on my stoopidity[ though i get hurt easily... haa... wadever la...] but i know the fact... aftet much shooting... u will comfort me by giving me support n advice n some stoopid racist, funny, crappy remarks... really... i do feel dumb... saddened by the truth... what should i do??? i found that there's no use for being honest u noe... coz... i noe deeply that in the end... i will end up hurt, heartbroken again... now i do not know what to do... i guess... for me, to protect the frenship i bear with them... i have to stay silence... i have to run n hide my true feelings... nvm... no one cares... no one noes... it's juz sad...